losing hope is easy when your only friend is gone n when you look around it all just seems to change

hey ...

so talk about a month and 1/2 of ups and downs ..

went to georgia and had the BEST time ever .. got some get stuff hung out with jesseca and just had an altogether great time ..
come home and hang out here .. then jess and her mom and tom leaves and tom died .. dont think i could have ever been ready for that one .. its weird he was such a great guy and even though i seen him 2 weeks a year i still loved him you know? .. im gonna miss our jokes the most ..

so last couple weeks been kinda down but im getting better .. so thats good ..
slept over colls the other day and had tons of fun specailly when she got high off fresh air .. (that just shows you need to get out more) .. then came home seen war of the worlds again (great movie) lol .. and just hung out .. tomorrow me and coll are gonna go see charile and the chocolate factory .. then sat im going up the mts and going white water rafting with jenny .. fun stuff .. wehn i get home me alicia and nicole are gonna go look for some hot guys .. then me and kim are supposed to hang out and if tinA ever gets off from work me and her are gonna do something

also im prob gonna go back to georgia in ausust to help jess cope with toms death .. its gonna be bad but i wanna be there for her .. so if i can talk bri in to taking me ill be back in ga for a week or soo ...

and also i need to do my summer reading but its gay .. i dont wanna .. cant i just say i have senioritious now? and not have to do it? .. prob not ..

and again also .. if jess moves back to philly (which might happen..) ill be going to bensalem with her .. mabye make my senior year a good one (and i know i say this every year but this year if they do come back .. i really will leave even if its in the middle of the year lol)

<3 monica